From 45,8 to 40

there's only one thing to do now,never come down from what i have been so that i wouldn't be able to eat anything at all even though am hungry fuck it this is a strict diet..
since i've came to malaysia i've been gaining weight and it's not only like 1 or 2kg we'r talking 7kg here.first i come in condition of 40kg now im 45.8 i just lost 1,2..hehhehe.But how ever even though am hungry neither thirsty i don't care am on strict diet no nothing i don't care what will happen to me afterwards but for now if i loose weight again I'll be so happy nothing can replace this happiness if i loose it all
hhahahahha...but if like my parents know that am on strict diet like i use to be again aren't they gonna be sad because they were happy when they saw me gaining but that when i was 43kg now am 45,8kg what the f**k???

ah!!!!!
i dunno what to do now my head is spinning is it because i haven't had anything to eat since morning???nah...impossible
i can survive that time by not eating anything for 8 days straight and this is not even one day so it couldn't be...i know am strong so i can handle this
hahhahahah

some people might call it crazy but i call this me,it's me what do you expect???I'm obsessed of being skinny
hehehehehehe