to be with him is the only thing i want rite now

not seeing someone you love for one month can really makes u cried everyday i just nitoce someone says that one month is only one month bt for me it felt like ages i can't have a long distance relationship but i do trust the person i love no mather what the only thing is i just miss seeing the face and the smile and everything like i only just need to hug him thats it i'm not asking for such a big things just a hug from someone i love thats it
i don't care how is the guy just how big is his love for me thats count i don't care even tho that guy is really scary or big or a killer or anything i just think what is inside thats count well maybe for me it's kinda hard coz i really dont like a short and fat guys (hehhe)kinda pickky i know but what do you expect am still a human no one can change that
but what i got now is just perfect he's not that tall but he's taller than me,hes skinny,and really nice on the inside and the cutest smile i have ever seen and it's kinda amazing to think that he's my boyfriend,first time i saw him i never think to make him my bF first i think he's really weird and he's not my type like he's chinese for GOD sake well am chinese but i don't like dating one and now i got one and he's the greatest thing i could ever ask for i'm really greatfull for it
i really do LOVE him
i can't think of other things then him maybe thats what i called LOVE..i have been into so many relationship but all of it it's like me who fell in love first but this one is totally different it's HIM the one who loves me not me and come to notice it now i'm deeply in love with him
beeing with him is all i want

17Hours drive can actually make ur ass as hard as a steel

Goin 17 hours drive is a new record for me sittin on the bus while waitin that we'll reached to the destination place as fast as i can coz like while i sit 17 hours to there and back again is like being in hell!!
i can't stand it when it's on the road but when wer there man the scenery is damn awesome and like seeing GODs doin all His work to all the people there is like amazing..
i'm there as the camera man so it's not like boring at all i got a lot of nice pict. and everythin and realising something out of the ordinary..
like the spiritual things that GOD made for us to realise and know about it i don't really like put a lot of attention in all of this stuff but when i saw it its like WOW"...you can't believe it all the atmosphere and everything can make me calm and like the people i'm around with even tho i'm like the youngest of all but i come to know even parents can have good time like we do and more...and the funny part is that when ur with people thats already are parents a 2 days trip is like a week they have supplies that can last for a week and they finished it all in just 4 days i'm like so surprised they can eat alot more then i do..specially they love to munch food like they bake something and its fucking nice i want more but im full just by eating two small piece of that delicious cake and a lot more..
it's all fun only the trip to go back and ford its like killing my ass i cant take it until now..i just sit for 1 hour or less my ass feel like so hurt or worse its almost numb and becoming flat again...
oh...shit...i already make it nice and now its flat again..i hate this now i have to excercise harder again..and i'm in my bad condition like sick and all that
but am happy coz 4 more days and i'm back to malaysia...
yippy...
all days worth
hhehe

online inside my hearth..post:happy ever after... continues

ok...so..happy ever after didn't last to long
hahha
coz now i have to get ready to go out of town..i hv to go at 12am..damn!!its to late and the most fucked up thing is that its 15 hours drive...huhuhu..and i can't go online until 6th.oh....
but still it's ok coz i can spend time with my mom and be more close to GOD so i guess it's ok i get to learn new things..
hehe..
but i still be happy coz after 6th i can count 5 more days until i'll be back to my lovely friends and lover..hehe
i'm not worried of how he is over there coz i trust him with all my hearth that he wouldn't do anything wrong..ahhahaha
i just can't believe i'm going to leave my family again and won't be seeing them until the next break again.but i dunno we'll see
i like going home but once i'm home i dunno what to do next i'm goin to be at home doin nothin and then i'll be missing my dump shit hole malaysia where my friends are
here at home am just having fun well tried to tho and just looking at my ticket that i already booked
can't wait till am back there meeting all of my friends and hug each one of em...